Random thoughts

Everything is finally over.

I thought I will be strong like the first time round.

But I was wrong.

This time round it hit me harder than I thought.

Indeed I felt a sense of relief the moment it was over.

I thought I could cope well.

But later did I know the sense of loss crept in later.

I felt I lost a part of me.

The more I tried to put on a brave front.

The more upset I felt.

I followed every single advice Prof Tan gave.

But the more I followed,

The more upset I felt.

The more it reminded me that it was gone.

This time round you emerged as a warrior,

While I'm the loser.

I thanked you for the care and concern you gave during this period.

Thanked you for being there for me.

But I know deep down inside it will take some time for me to get over it.

As much as I want to be emtionally dependent on you,

I know I cant.

I know I am selfish to ask you to put the pursuit on hold.

But right now I know I still need you to be there for me.

Before I can give the blessings.

I'm really tired.

Its tough being strong.

I need a shoulder to cry and lean on.